ok, so last night i checked my email and saw that there was going to be a birthday party tonight for one of the people i work with. i was excited and thought that i would definitely want to go. i went to bed early!
i woke up this morning with basically a panicked feeling because of the thought of going to this party. i was going to have to call someone to get directions and then of course wait around all day for the party to start and finally attend the party.
i sat around for a while trying to talk myself into going. i also did a lot of talking myself out of going. it's amazing how many reasons my psycho brain could come up with in order to convince me that i should just stay home and continue to be a freak instead of going out and having a great time with funny people who i like.
well here i am, writing this blog post, so i'm sure you can draw the conclusion that my hermit side won out again. i was literally sitting here feeling like i was going to throw up until i finally decided to stay home. i really don't think you are supposed to have that kind of reaction to something that's supposed to be FUN, are you???
i already seize up whenever i have to use the phone, now i'm afraid to go to a party too? soon i am seriously going to be unable to leave the house and i will definitely be the crazy cat lady one day. i don't know what to do??